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This fundraising campaign is in memory of my beautiful 8 year old daughter Ayesha. Her wish was to travel the world to help the poor/vulnerable orphans. All she wanted to do was to put a smile on their faces. 

The loss of my daughter has been the hardest and the most difficult thing I had to deal with in my life. It's impossible to sum up what has happened in the last couple of years. It is impossible to find words to describe my feelings and the feelings of my children. However I A mother’s job is to LOVE & PROTECT their children but the two people that she trusted and loved were the very people that took away her life.  We have a lifetime to grieve this unspeakable loss, but I know that right now my princess  would want me to focus completely on her siblings, who survived this horrid ordeal.

Thursday 29^th August 2013, our world fell apart.  Everything that had happened over the past few years had collapsed in a blink of an eye. Our world had crumbled right in front of us. I lost a battle which I never agreed to fight in the first place. I concealed my pain for so long - wiping my tears quickly enough for them to go unnoticed, I resorted to dwelling in shadows to avoid causing such pain. I cried every night. Each tear-drop engraved yet another scar.  The saddest part was that I had to put up with another day, every day, shielding my suffering inside. I forced myself to feel alive, my heart was left yearning for death. The smile upon my face was only for a show, a defence.

For moments in my life I block the world out completely and try to only think about my princess, her smile, her presence, her words, her kisses.  Then reality hits me and I regain full awareness as I slowly become speechless and dead inside. My yearning for death would incise my heart. I fall into pieces. In our beautiful religion we are taught that the door of heaven lies beneath the feet of your mother. We are also taught that daughters are a source of immeasurable joy for their parents. Long before a daughter is born, she is deeply loved. Daughters are often a mother's best friend, her ally, and her most precious treasure. For a father, a daughter is often the heart of his soul, his princess. It is no surprise then, that a parent's love for a daughter is so intense and selfless.  My love for my PRINCESS was just that, INTENSE & SELFLESS…

They have also destroyed the lives of her siblings who cry each night and pray that Ayesha was here and part of their life.  When my princess died, a part our lives died too. We never knew how hard it was to lose someone you love. In my heart our princess shall forever remain.  I constantly sit in my room, looking at her picture. And always wonder why she couldn't be part of my future.  Every night I go to sleep I have her in my prayer and I close my eyes and visualize that she was here, right next to me, sleeping in my arms with her head on my chest. Her siblings cry every night for their sister and as a father I do not have an answer and just tell them that she in Heaven and we will meet her one day.

POEM:

On the 29th August 2013, my world fell apart. My little angel was ripped from my heart. I looked up in the sky and cried my eyes out. The world shattered beneath me and my heart bled within me. The world froze around me.

What did I do to deserve this...? I wondered. The pain got even stronger and when I surrendered, submission was my only answer.

The day I laid my princess deep beneath the ground I trembled with fear. I kept hearing a voice in the distance, a sweet angelic voice calling my name "Daddy…daddy….Oh daddy, where are you going, don't leave me."

My heart broke into a million pieces, if only I could see and feel her, wipe away her tears.

I remembered the beautiful days when I used to tuck her away into bed with her favourite duvet covers. My princess Ayesha would never let me go without kissing me over and over. But this time my princess just went to sleep forever.

Even though we can't see, we  know you’re up there watching over us. We miss you more and more every day and all we can do is pray.

Oh Lord (Allah – SWT) please grant me the privilege to see my princess in the hereafter.

As her father, I intend to fulfil her dream. I wish to raise £250,000 to build orphanages and homes in the third world countries and support an institute in London.

Projection: 2015/16: £50, 000 – 2017: £50,000 – 2018: £50,000 – 2019: £50,000 – 2020: £50,000 – Total: £250,000

So far we have raised £2,186.53, thank you!

In order for us to achieve the above and fulfil Ayesha’s dream we need your support.  Please donate whatever you can, also please encourage friends and family to take part.  We understand if you are unable to donate however we request you to promote this amongst your friends/family and spread the word.

We would like to thank the following newspapers/magazine for their support:

·         Real People’s Magazine

·         Newham Recorder

·         Barking & Dagenham Recorder

·         Red-bridge Recorder

WE LOVE YOU AYESHA...